So umm…
Lately I have been having a hard time balancing work and home life. I feel like I give my job my all and my family gets whatever is left, which isn’t the best idea. I recently read something that hit me hard. It said, “Work will replace you but home can’t”. That hit me that maybe I need to figure out my life a little differently. My husband and my kids need me way more then my job ever will, has me thinking about my priorities and how I need to change them. I have to be on a different schedule to be able to give my kids what they need. I realize that my kids are not going to be home for long. My oldest is ditching us and going off to collage (I always tease her that she’s ditching us) in 2 years. Her and I have been through a lot together we have a special relationship, as I do with all my kids they bring out a different side of me and they all saved me, taught me something different about myself. She like my little best friend. Believe me there is a line drawn in the sand and she knows not to cross it, but we talk about any and everything and she is about to be a grown up and do her own thing. Very scary time to watch my baby leave home. (I am so not ready )
So because my life right now is crazy I decided to send DJ back to school. Because I am not home with him I find that doing work at 7 and 8 are not good for either of us. He right now is thrown off his sleep schedule and I hear him wondering the house at all times of night (probably taking snacks) and yes we have an alarm just in case he decides to be bold, but I don’t think he will tho. He doesn’t get speech at home and any of the other services that are offered in school. So I had to make the tough decision to let him go back. He doesn’t of course want to because his other siblings are home but his has to be done.
Being a parent means having to do the things you may not want to do for the greater good of the house/kids. Even if you don’t like the idea of it. Believe me I don’t like the idea of a lot of stuff but it still has to be done for the sake of the “team”. I think like most parents wish they could keep their kids home forever. (now I know how my parents felt, and it kind of sucks) Kids are the priority until they are out the house, I am not sure how long I will have DJ, meaning if he is going to live with me forever or if he is going to want to do his own thing and want an apartment. (God being a parent is hard) But whatever he/we decide it will be what is best in the long run.