2022
So it’s 2022 and I realized I haven’t written anything in a year. So I decided to do a year in review lol.. When I set out to start this blog my goal was to do it weekly and lately that’s not what’s been happening (obviously) life took over hard and fast.
DJ whom is now 16 is a different person. Teenage DJ is different, I miss my “talkative” always smiling little boy who always wanted to be around me. Now, he rather be in his room smiles whenever I feel like he’s just over everyone half the time. We have been seeing doctors over seizures. I feel like the doctors think I am crazy, but I don’t care I have to advocate for my child. I know something is off and something isn’t adding up. I’ve requested test and did shed some light on what’s going on but at this point I think I need to get fresh eyes on the case to see if there is anything else going on. He has recently started acting like his old self but I do not think he will ever be my baby DJ. He is growing up and I am so not here for it. But, if you know DJ he’s DJ he has this smile that makes you smile, his laugh makes you laugh, he’s perfect.
Delsie is now 17 and is applying to collages (Well really just one….I know). Saying it hurts.. My baby won’t be a baby any more. She is my first born and the thought of her experiencing life and being a grown up is not it. I remember being pregnant with her and holding her when she was born and just watching her grow up, in my mind we never got to this point and here we are. I’ve always told her that she has to leave to go to collage. We have an amazing relationship and our family is really close. As much as I would love for her to be home, I need her to figure out who she is without the other kids around. She is so use to being “DJ’s Big sister” which she absolutely wears as a badge of honor, I need her just to be Delsie with no strings attached. She is currently in therapy due to mental health stuff (with her permission maybe I can get more in depth) but she is thriving and doing what she needs to do.
Karie is 12 and is tall which by the way he is loving. Grant it I am only “5-2” and he is about “5-4”/ “5-5”. He is uber smart and I realized with him that I was projecting my thoughts about who he should be on him, and not allowing him to be who he wants to be. He’s a smart kid and I always said like you should be a engineer. He followed suit and would say I want to be an engineer, at some point I realized that, that is not what he wants to do, he only said that because I said it to him. He really wants to do anime. Which I knew he was into but he loves it and we are going to support whatever it is he wants to do. I’ve always told my kids, I have paid my dues and have made my choices, you have to do what’s best for you. I was not allowing him to do that by making that choice for him, he’s great at drawling, he is way more than capable of doing it and we will be rooting for him. He is also doing well on his seizure medication we haven’t seen one since the last one a couple years ago. Our relationship is great, we have gotten closer, maturity has hit him over the head a couple of times (Thank God) and overall we are excited about what’s next.
Ms. Paige is Ms. Paige she is now 5 in kindergarten. I can’t believe I have a senior and a kindergartener. But she is the actress of our family. I cannot wait to see who she becomes because her personality is big! She does things for laughs while staying true to herself. When she started school I would ask her if she made friends she would say “no” and I would ask who did she sit with and talk to at lunch she said no one, and I would say are you sad about it or are you okay with sitting by yourself and she would say, “I am fine by myself” So I wouldn’t bother her about it. She is okay not to hang around other people and be by herself. ( She does have friends and sit with other people now because she wants to not because it was forced) We are currently learning to read which can be frustrating because you’re trying to make it fun but you’re also like, THE CAT IN THE HAT! Like ma’am these are your sight words! We will get there eventually.